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hey guys ❤
what’s poppin’ ❤
I’M POPPIN’ MOTHERFUCKIN’ PILLS!!!1!!
that was a joke. although to be honest i wish i was poppin’ pills (not suicidal haha) (genuinely tho, i don’t want to be misleading).
so, on my home page it says that i would not leave anything overly personal here but like eff it cos i am a schizo girl blogger and i do what i want.
i am suffering lowkey (highkey) and i need like some kind of “creative” outlet other than my 80 instagram accounts.
ig now is a good time to leave a TRiGgeR warning cos this shit is wild.
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° 𐐪𐑂 ♡ 𐐪𐑂 ₒ 𐐪𐑂 ♡ 𐐪𐑂 °
i’m have bulimia. and yes ik, in the words of the red heather from the movie Heathers (1988), “bulimia is so 87′, heather.” but,,, I’M BRINGING IT BACK.
fr i am genuinely trying to eat like a normal person now but at night the ⛧⸸☠DEM0NS☠⸸⛧ come out and i eat like my whole refrigerator and digest none of that shit.
and bro i swear when i tell ppl “haha my drug of choice is eating 5k calories in one sitting,” their response is something along the lines of “slay” or “word.” and then when they figure out how i stay slim doing it they be like wtf. i understand that purging is extremely dangerous, but I hate how society has somewhat normalized excessive over-eating to the point where ppl fail to realise it’s a very serious, maladaptive coping mechanism; even without purging/ compulsive calorie burning afterwards. and genuinely not to dunk on larger people, but I feel like it’s difficult to be extremely obese and not suffer from some kind of disordered eating patterns. like ppl should talk more about emotional eating instead of just telling large ppl to “eat less” or “just don’t be lazy.” that is just my slay take tho.
other than all that, i’m doing pretty well :3 (oh god).
um idk how i should end this post so i’m just going to share a list of my deranged thoughts…
꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱NINA’S KAWAII MENTALLY UNSTABLE CLINICALLY INSANE THOUGHTS (they r actually just stupid thoughts) ꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱:
- there r ppl out here dying from testicle cancer and here i am being like “i have a bad relationship with food”
- when will i wake up with D cup titties
- holy shit i’m so fucking ugly
- if i had a jawline i would not have body dysmorphia. i could be an obese bitch but if my jawline was CUT i would not care.
- when i swallow a load of cum i add it to a database and rank it (highest possible ranking is a 5.5/10)(wait make that 4.5)(also i’m not a slag)
- everyone should get plastic surgery (this is kind of objectively true…)
- i’m so invincible, not even i can kill me (part of the nina lore)
anyways, other than all that i’m honestly doing pretty well for myself (ASHDJSKAHDK)
that’s all folks,,,
seeeee you next time on Keeping Up With the Kardashians
– Nina ૮₍ ˃ ᵕ ˂ ₎ა
Netscape Nina 